Noise

Music. Spotify, car radio.

Computer. Internet. Facebook, youtube, blogger, twitter, iPhone, pinterest, e-mail, foursquare, games, apps.

Books. TV shows (on my laptop). Journaling/writing. Taking pictures. Editing pictures.

Getting together with friends. Lunch, dinner, coffee. Being a mentor. Weddings, bridesmaid, bridal showers, baby showers.

Leading high school girls small group Sun mornings. Youth events and trips. Learning, creating, and compiling videos. Bible study.

Work. Cleaning. Angry customers. Hurtful remarks and conversations from coworkers. Job hunting.

Errands. Dentist and doctor appointments.

Sleep.



I have no right to be frustrated with not hearing God in my life when it is full of not only literal noise, but also a busy noise. My life is full of good things, entertainment, great people, and frustrating stuff as well. Even if God isn't directly "speaking," I'm not feeling peace about some things in my life. And I need that back. If God is ready to show me what my next job should be, I want to hear it. If He's not, then I want to feel His peace about it. I want a husband, and if God's ready to bring Him I'm ready, and if He's not then I need to know what to work on or peace about waiting. There are people that I need to let go of that I am not letting go of and need God's joy to be what sustains me through that. I am jealous over people's attention to others instead of me, and jealous over others' great things they're recieving in life that I want. I worry.

I need time without so much noise. Not a day or two, but a longer, extended amount of time. More reading the bible, praying, and listening.